I am not really sure who still reads this blog.
Maybe you follow me more on Instagram, Facebook or even Twitter.
But, the latest news is:
A few weeks ago, at 7 weeks, Summer heard Baby B's heartbeat. Today at 10 weeks, the heartbeat was gone. Baby B died at 9 weeks. Please keep two of the strongest people in your hearts during yet another loss that they are forced to bear. And keep hope that the next heartbeat they hear lasts forever.
This was Baby B's first photo.
A heartbeat.
I heard it and tears rolled down my cheeks.
A due date.
Less than 10% chance of miscarriage.
But, Baby B's heart stopped somewhere in between 9 and 10 weeks.
We were so close to having that healthy baby we have hoped for.
Another loss.
1 ectopic. 2 D&C's.
Mine is scheduled for Wednesday.
I am really not sure why this keeps happening.
But we heard a heartbeat and Baby B grew more than the rest.
Will the next have a heartbeat forever?
I am okay. Adam is not.
Then again, am I really okay?
Am I just being me?
Bringing out the fighter?
Finding that hope again? Or trying to?
44 comments:
Girl. I saw this yesterday and my heart goes out to you both. xoxo
I am so, so sorry for your loss. You're in my thoughts.
I'm so so sorry Summer, you and Adam are in my prayers, xo
Oh Summer, I am so sorry. Keeping you both, as well as Baby B, in my thoughts.
Oh Summer, I'm so sorry for this loss. You guys will be in my prayers. Hugs!
Bless your heart! I'm so sorry for your loss : (
That sounds like a terribly difficult thing to go through. I'm so sorry.
I am so sorry for your loss. :( Stay Strong, and Keep the faith.
I am so, so sorry, Summer. Praying for you and Adam.
My heart is breaking for you all. Just seems so unfair. You have been such a huge support for me and I hope we can support you all as best we can. All my love. xoxo
I saw this picture on IG yesterday and gasped, then my heart hurt so badly for you. You're always in my prayers. XOXO
Prayers, Hugs, and healing thoughts..I'm so sorry.
I have always kept up with you, although I usually don't comment. I am so incredibly sorry, Summer. It really is just so unfair. No words can make you feel better...just so, so sorry.
I am so sorry!
Still reading, Summer, and still cheering for you. I am so sorry you have to go through through this again. I am glad you did get to hear that sweet baby's heartbeat and I pray that next time that heart keeps beating right through a healthy pregnancy, delivery, and blessed life.
Summer, I can't even tell you how sad I am to read this....life is so unfair.
Sending you much love & thinking of you both,
Simone XX
Sending you a hug dear. Wishing I could be there to comfort you in person.
I'm so sorry :(
Oh, Summer. Sending you all my love.
I am still reading and still sending lots of love and hugs. I know you are meant to be a mama:) I pray it happens soon.
When I saw this news on Instagram my heart just broke for you. No two people should have to experience as much pain and loss as you and Adam have. I'm so sorry you're walking this path again. I will pray that one day {soon!!} you will hold your forever baby in your arms.
Hugs and prayers friend.
I'm still here. oh Summer, I wish I could do something, anything for you as words never seem enough, I want to hug you both. Take care, I'll be thinking of you as always. Lots of love x
I'm still here. oh Summer, I wish I could do something, anything for you as words never seem enough, I want to hug you both. Take care, I'll be thinking of you as always. Lots of love x
I'm still here. oh Summer, I wish I could do something, anything for you as words never seem enough, I want to hug you both. Take care, I'll be thinking of you as always. Lots of love x
Sending you lots of love, good thoughts, hope, prayers, sunshine and peace ... xoxoxo
I am so sorry for your loss. You've had to endure so much heartbreak this last few years. Praying for comfort, peace and a Baby Brownie for you!
I wish there was something I could say, or do... I can only imagine the hurt and heartbreak you both must be feeling. Prayers, love, thoughts, more love... just know I am sending it all your way. Hugs to Adam, hugs to you.
So sorry for your loss. Praying for you both.
Summer. I am so sorry. I am really broken up for you. I have followed ALL of the tragedies of the years, and it is unfair. Although I am only a blogger friend, I would love to hug you (will be in NYC for two weeks in December but for now it is afar).
LOVE from Seattle.
My heart breaks for you and Adam- I am so, so sorry.
I'm so sorry to hear...I just went through this myself and I know nothing I can say helps right now. I hope time lets you heal.
Good God, can I just hug you??? I love you sooo much summer.
OK if I was well enough I would buy a ticket to NYC just to give you a hug! I love you so very much! That is what happened to us our first miscarriage our lil peanut lost heartbeat at anywhere between 9 and 1o weeks and I had to have a D&C! You know all of this already.
I feel so badly for you! I love you so much and I know that you and Adam will have a baby I just know it! This next babies heartbeat will last forever!
It's ok not to be so strong sometimes ok! I know you and me are warriors but even warriors need a day to just scream so scream my dear!
I love you so much and am so so sorry!
Sums
So sorry girl...there's really nothing that can be said to make it go away or make you feel better.
Sending you, nonetheless, hugs over!
Summer...My heart breaks for you guys...sending positive thoughts your way...
Thinking of you. <3
You are in my thoughts and prayers. I'm so sorry for your loss.
I'm so sorry for your loss. Keeping you both in my prayers.
I'm so sorry for your loss. Keeping you both in my prayers.
You are 2 of the strongest people I know Thinking of you still gorgeous!
I'm so sorry to hear this, I'm thinking of you guys....
No words will ever be the right words in this situation. I will keep you and Adam in my prayers to find strength and hope during this difficult time.
Oh Summer, I'm so sorry. :(
Man Summer, I'm so sorry. I gotta tell ya, from time to time, you both pop into my mind. And even when we don't know each other, or aren't even close blogfriends, I make little wishes for you guys. Any chance I get or remember, I wish the best for you. I wish a good and healthy baby Brownie. I won't ever stop wishing and praying, Summer.
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