Even through another loss, I am trying to find the good that has come from it.
I will never understand why we have had to experience all of this pain but I do know it could be worse. It could always be worse.
Am I sad?
Deeply saddened.
Am I angry?
Sometimes.
Am I trying to move forward?
Yes, but only between long naps and little cries.
I need to change a lot before I become a mother.
I am not the best person that I can be.
I need to care more for the people I love than care about a career or people that won't care about me in a month.
I need to find my place in this world.
And I think what is the hardest is still feeling so pregnant.
Nauseated. Boobs are huge and sore. Peeing like a racehorse.
Bah.
Wednesday is my D&C, if Sandy allows it to happen still.
xo
Sum
And I think what is the hardest is still feeling so pregnant.
Nauseated. Boobs are huge and sore. Peeing like a racehorse.
Bah.
Wednesday is my D&C, if Sandy allows it to happen still.
xo
Sum
11 comments:
You are in my thoughts Summer. You deserve happiness and I know you'll get it.
You absolutely deserve happiness, I hate that this is happening to you, life is so rubbish sometimes. I am so sorry Summer....sending love and thinking of you sweet girl XX
The physical stuff makes me incredibly sad. I am so sorry that you have to deal with this yet again. It's unbelievable, and so frustrating to not know why it's all happening.
I'm here whenever you need me. xoxoxo
I'm not quite sure how I came across your blog but I've been reading it for a bit, and I'm so so sorry to hear this. I know I'm just a random person, but I'm sending you love and keeping you and Adam in my thoughts. So sorry you are going through all of this.
so sorry Summer. Praying for you. Not sure why some are dealt harder hands than others. :(
I am so sorry that you have to suffer this loss again. My prayers are with you sweet girl. Love you!
XoXo
God, Summer. My heart just breaks for you. Breaks. Please know that a random stranger gives a shit and hurts because of the pains you have to face. Please know she is in awe of your courage and strength. Please know that she sends you nothing but love. Please know that she prays for you.
I was so sad to read this. I am praying for you.
Thinking and praying and sending you lots of ((((HUGS)))) love!!!!
Haven't popped by in a long while... was thinking of the blogs I missed reading a day or two ago and thought of yours. Hang in there Summer. Your day will come one day; one way or another! As hard as it is to do, when I'm in my dark days, focusing on my blessings and all that's good in my life and conciously acknowledging these things on a daily basis helps. Sending you hugs - Elle
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